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Friday, October 2, 2009

Fantasies or lack thereof

Porn interviews don’t have much variation. Sometimes they throw a curve ball in the form of a political question and even more rarely history or math but even then it’s not for the answer it’s for the reaction—can the porn chick add two and two and does she know what the Warsaw Pact is. They prefer if you don’t. Get creative. Giggle and say balls. Or Megan Fox. Then they get back to the cookie cutter questions about how many orgasms we can have and which position we like and how old we were when we started having sex and if you really want to have fun with it you can give a different answer every time so people will start comparing notes and scratching their heads. Here’s the one that always stumps me though: “what is your fantasy.”

I dunno.

I really do say that. I don’t know what my fantasy is. It used to be a B/B/G hookup. Two guys one girl all mine. Then one day, many many weeks into the epically long filming of “The 8th Day”, I started part one of a two-part scene. In the storyline I’m coming out of a euphoria and I round the corner into a room of gorgeous men and I have one and then he’s not enough so I have another and he’s still not enough and as I’m about to move on to the third the euphoria wears off and I realize that my gorgeous men aren’t really gorgeous men and I run out screaming. So the director calls action and I dive in throat first and it’s wonderful like always and it keeps going and going and I become more and more aware of the one watching with his dick in his hand (because the other two are there as props for part 1) and suddenly I reach over and pull him in and he’s not quite sure how to react but he most definitely doesn’t say no and I hear the director under his breath telling everyone “don’t stop rolling.”

And so there went my fantasy. I lived it. It was good. I did it again in a second movie not long after and I’d do it a third time. I expected to get the most selfish sex of my life but it’s the complete opposite and somehow it still works for me. It’s very hard to keep two men satisfied at once. They’re selfish creatures by nature.

But now I don’t have a new fantasy to fill the void. I hear other girls in the industry talking about theirs and phrases like “100 guy gang bangs” get tossed around and one likes chloroform but I just haven’t found mine yet and I feel displaced. I’m open to suggestions though. I think “2 girls 1 cup” was the pinnacle of organic sexual creativity and not in a good way. Now we have CGI in porn and fantasies are involving technology. This is a new day dreaming era. People will see Belladonna slay a giant worm in Pirates 2 and next thing you know there will be a demand for interactive DVDs with talking putty-like insects. Times are changing. I need to catch up.

posted by Kayden Kross on 2:14 PM :: 12 comments

12 Comments:

Hmmm... What about costume/alien/monster sex? There was some xxx movie in which a girl has sex with Bigfoot. It's a guy in a Bigfoot costume, obviously, but the makeup was impressive and he really looked like a different creature. If Ren Savant wanted you for another movie (with a budget like the one for The 8th Day,) that calls for a sex scene between you and an anthropomorphic version of, say, the wolf from Little Red Riding Hood, would something like that be up your alley or is that just too strange for your tastes?

In this day and age, it's tough to find things that haven't been explored much when it comes to sexuality, so it's no wonder why people would be curious about YOUR sexual fantasies. It's the old, "What catches the interest of someone who's pretty much seen it all?" question.

By Kaijen, at October 2, 2009 3:10 PM

email me and I'll tell you what it should be...

(I guarantee everyone who reads this blog will have the same smartass thought)

By Steve, at October 2, 2009 4:39 PM

Viva la Difference between men and women. We have our own sexual fantasies and it's just the opposite of or compliments Kayden's. Most of us would like to have two women for us alone at one time. What do you think guys? This is my biggest fantasy. What's yours?

By Glenn, at October 2, 2009 5:35 PM

Not me. There's only one Tab A, I can't wrap my head around the inclusion of a duplicate set of slot B,C, and D. The only thing I can envision is a bit more interactive version of watching two girls enjoy each other. Not That There's Anything Wrong With That, as they say, but it's not the same category as an actual three-person sex act, in my head, which would be three people all enjoying each other simultaneously. Like, "ouroboros - GO" feels contrived. I suppose it all boils down to not having done it, so I don't know what it's about. Suffice to say I'm not that curious. One woman is plenty for me to go on with.

By mpilnick, at October 3, 2009 3:30 PM

Since I've never had much success with women my fantasies tend to be self-contradictory. I think maybe I vent some of my anger and frestration at mostly being ignored by women when I have fantasies involving me as dominant and with a huge cock (definitely a fantasy).

On the other hand, my most enjoyable actual experiences also still work as fantasies, which is me and my partner being very slow and smooth and sensual; lots of touching and stroking, definitely lots of kissing, ending up with me giving cunnilingus and giving her mind-blowing multiple orgasms. My favorite memory of a time like that, I never even got to get off or even take off my undrwear.

Selfish / unselfish. Hmm. I'd have to say, being a guy, I'd take either one.

By Rob, at October 4, 2009 4:35 AM

Would meeting a fan be in one of your fantasies? Because my biggest fantasy would have to deal with running into you on the street and somehow ending up in the bedroom. :p

By therolepleaser, at October 4, 2009 9:15 AM

If you ever try your hand at writing, in say, novel form or perhaps journalism, I for one would read it. You have quite the talent.

By Nathan, at October 4, 2009 2:03 PM

Do you think that you're having trouble finding a new fantasy because your fantasies are so easily satisfied? What I mean is, since you have access and opportunities to make pretty much any sexual fantasy of yours come true, do you think that your fantasies will just continue to escalate to the point where you too will want something riculous like a 100 guy gang bang?

I think your next fantasy should to totally fulfill someone else's fantasy. Yes yes, you're a pornstar. So you're probably the fantasy for most guys already. But that's more lust than fantasy. Most guys would stick their junk in a hamburger. So to really be someone's fantasy and blow their mind (and other things) is the ultimate.

By M, at October 4, 2009 11:11 PM

You know, taking (sort of) a cue off of M's comment, that would be interesting as a feature for your website, Kayden.

What if you held a contest where the winner gets to star in a homemade, pov-style adult movie with you? Perhaps it could be something where guys (or even girls too) write in to describe why you should pick them. I don't know that this would fulfill any fantasies of yours, but it would certainly be something unique for your website. You'd just have to be careful with your selection so you don't pick anyone dangerous, crazy, obsessive, or creepy. ... Which would eliminate about 5/6ths of the applicants right there.

By Kaijen, at October 8, 2009 4:46 PM

I've been badgering her about writing professionally (here and on Twitter) for months, Nathan, and she still says she doesn't know what she wants to do.

I could say something about leading whores to water, but that would just be gratuitous self gratification.

Speaking of which....

By hesspartacus, at October 11, 2009 10:54 AM

Wow. I think I just spent a few hours reading your blog; I found it through some website that posts hot chicks (how 'guy' of me). Let me say this: I turn to the internet for many things; entertainment, music, art, literature etc., but I have never stumbled across a more complete and fascinating glimpse into the life of someone I do not know.

I'm having difficulty putting my finger on what exactly it is about your blog that strikes me as particular....I think it's a combination of a few things. You have a unique mastery of prose, which surpasses most people I went to college with, and a frank honesty that is fun yet oddly earnest. Your profession just happens to be something that causes discord in this country. Although I must admit certain stereotypes that I had harbored have been broken.

Your writings, however complete or relevant they may be to your life, have caused an odd feeling in my stomach. A realization that I in fact do not know as much as I thought I did about people, or maybe It's bizarre appreciation for someone willing to give a peek 'behind the curtain' to the general public. I think the fact that we are of the same age (revealed within the depths of your writing) or participate in radically different professions has set off somewhat of an emotional chasm.

I digress. The point of this message is to thank you for doing so, no matter how direct or indirect your intentions were towards your readers. You have made an impact. You posses a unique voice. Please do not stop writing.

By Derrick, at October 11, 2009 8:32 PM

What are you expecting. The public wants the following:
1. how much you think of sex
2. when did you start your sex life
3. when did you suck your first dick
4. what is your favorite position
5. do you get wet during a scene
... and so on. What I don't uderstand is: Why complain? You are making alot of money and don't have to work a 9-5 job in a stupid restaurant or some other place like that.
You should write something interesting. It's though to be a porn star. "Suck" it up and entertain us. Like Neil Patrick Harris does... be funny, hot, and make us jerk off.. and if we want to read the same info about "how many hair fibres" you have in the east side of your pussy... then so be it. The people have spoken

By Miron, at October 15, 2009 12:37 AM